Oh, hey there!
That suit is great for sun protection, but might not help jog your memory.
Remember me now?
Just kidding! I haven’t been that fancy in quite a while.
Here I am recently in all my morning glory. If you’re following me on Facebook or Instagram, you may have caught the occasional post like this from time to time, but as you may have noticed, I’ve been largely absent here.
“So what gives?”
I really don’t have an answer – or at least not one answer.
Really it was a culmination of a few things.
Selling a house. Buying a house. Moving all the shit we accumulated over the 11 years we spent in that house to the new house an hour away. Settling the kids into their new schools where they knew ZERO other kids at the start of last school year. And for extra kicks my husband left a secure corporate job to start a new business. I found this a bit stressful. “I fear change.”
My godforsaken website just quit working one day.
When I started this blog almost nine years ago, I literally had no clue how to manage a website. Clearly I still don’t. In my defense it took several professionals to fix the issues, and I’m told all the hamsters are now spinning the proper wheels.
The internet doesn’t make me as happy as it used to.
Back in 2010, I had a five year old, a three year old and a one year old. Parenting three kids under five was challenging and at times I felt pretty isolated. I had convinced myself one more episode of Dora and my brain would have melted. My husband, the only other adult I’d sometimes see during the day, encouraged me to start a blog. I never knew that we’d grow to a community of nearly 400K people, and how great it would be to share – over share – and connect with all of you. Of course now Facebook now holds you all hostage from me, asking me to pay in order to have my posts shared with the people who liked my page, and then there’s the rest of the internet…and the general state of the planet. It’s got me like WHOA. So I was already stressed, my internet hamsters died and my website along with it, none of you saw me, and omg what kind of world are we living in, so yeah. It made me sad and so I just walked away from it.
I walked away and then I just kept walking.
Did I mention we moved to the beach? Oh man, it’s nice here. So nice in fact that I started walking. And walking. And walking some more. Turns out, if I have the right environment, like a beautiful beach, I could do that shit all day. I literally just walked away the stress, anxiety and sads. Oh, and then I picked up trash, lots of it. I started finding cool stuff too, so I made a little side blog, The Tide Wader, where I share my local beachy stuff and ask people to stop murdering sea life with their balloons – but in a NICE way.
We got a dog.
Some people get soooo mad when you compare dogs to babies, but I was having flashbacks when I was waking up in the middle of the night and super early in the morning so my puppy could poop or eat. But he’s cute, sort of trained and is now over a year old so no more nighttime poops and about 85lbs of golden doodle love. We still have Baxter, our Bichon, and don’t worry he’s still the boss. This is the baby, Titus.
I felt like a sell out.
*Stretches out on therapist style couch* I just felt like I took on way too much sponsored stuff. Running a website isn’t free – or cheap – and neither is advertising, paying ransoms to Facebook so you can find me, but it got to the point where I really felt disconnected from some of the material I was sharing. So instead of saying yes to almost every opportunity that came my way – and usually included nice giveaway goodies for all of you – I just said no for a year. Will I ever take sponsored content on again? Maybe, but just like the lack of ads you see on the site here, you’re not going to see a lot of content that I’m being paid to show you. Not knocking it for anyone else, but the fun of writing was getting lost in there for me.
That’s two Wayne’s World gifs for anyone keeping score.
I turned 40.
Just go take a look at my last post to see how I’m dealing with this bullshit.
Oh, and I’m writing a book.
Yep! I’m writing a book. It’ll be a book with words and chapters and things I’ve managed not to share. That itself is a feat, I assure you. So far things are progressing…slowly.
So there you have it! That’s all my excuses for taking a year off! I know it’s sort of lame, but I felt like I needed to just fill you in on where I was for the better part of the last year. I’m honestly looking forward to reconnecting with you all again.
I’ll also be accepting funny guest posts, so if you’re interested in being featured email me at firstname.lastname@example.org